Thursday 20 October 2011

The ‘Monkey’ Lied


Have you ever heard the age-old saying, ‘speak to the organ grinder, not the monkey’?
Well the day that I called my General Practitioner (GP (organ grinder)) and spoke to the receptionist (monkey) to confirm the outcome of my test results, was the day I clearly took leave from my senses.

Instead of skimming through my notes to declare that all my tests were fine, and that I was not required to see the doctor, the receptionist should have said that she didn’t have time to read through 5 pages of my results.  Ok, ok, to be fair I wouldn’t have been very impressed. My blood may have turned into scorching hot larva with that response, but at that point I would have been able to make an informed choice to schedule an appointment with my GP asap.

So I sat quite comfortably on cloud nine, rest assured that there were no obvious indications (through the blood test results) of infertility or related issues. Which in itself suggested that it was just probably a matter of time before I conceived. 
Well cloud nine soon cleared and I then fell to earth with a THUMP.
If it wasn’t for my GP contacting me two months later to find out why I had not visited the surgery regarding my results, I wouldn’t have found out that one my iron levels are below the level it should be, I’m over producing prolactin, and my progesterone is lower than is normal.

Consequently, from what I understand now; the ttc dream can be made more difficult with the imbalance of prolactin and or progesterone in my body.
BUGGER, BUGGER, BUGGER!

No worries…

Having vented my frustration I remain genuinely pleased that out of the 52 tests taken from my blood sample, only 3 issues were detected all of which are (most importantly) treatable.

Our next steps toward Bi9 as laid out by my GP is to get my husband tested and then depending on the results we will be referred to a fertility clinic for treatment.
Additionally, I will make sure that my diet has an upsurge of the right nutritious intake to give my body a boost, by omitting the Pregnacare Conception supplement and introducing the RIGHT doses of folic acid, evening primrose and iron. TRYING to eat red meat, and even more dark green vegetables (which will be my pleasure).

I’m feeling positive because now I know what I’m dealing with. I’m not facing an impossible situation; there are just a few imbalances that need to be put right.

The moral of the story; as intelligent as a monkey is, the organ grinder is always the one to talk to.

May the London autumn breeze blow 700 tons of baby dust your way.
HEALTH WARNING: Goggles may be required

Tuesday 4 October 2011

1,2,3... SMILE

My mood reflected the weather here in London this morning - cold and gloomy, until I heard a still small voice whisper;  count your blessings one by one, so I did: 

  1. I have a very special husband
  2. I have a loving home and a beautiful house
  3. My family unit is incredible in so many ways
Not everyone can number their blessings to 3, so today I am very grateful that I could indeed go on but just choose not to show off, you know how it is.

Now my frown has been replaced with something more fitting for a woman that has so much happiness in her life and nothing really to complain about...my smile reigns supreme.

Sunday 2 October 2011

Knock Knock

Me: Knock Knock
You: Who's there?
Me: Just Me



It's been such a long time since I've put pen to paper - years actually, if you take that literally - these days it's all about 'typing to script' rather the prehistoric (but reliable) 'pen to paper'.


Seriously, my absence from the social network was almost required as my thoughts were so melancholy. So much that my inspiration was heavily saturated with the weight of worry, and the feeling of hopelessness all of a sudden - all for far too long. As a consequence, hints of my clouded mentality would have surely leaked into Bi9's blog, so I stayed away.


My pivotal moment appeared when I finally visited my local GP (I'm generally so reluctant) to find out whether there were any immediate signs of infertility. Blind to all but one, I was (and am) not just green with envy (some days) but I am a rainbow of the sin, mainly of newly pregnant mums and mums (I wish I wasn't).  So for my sanity I needed a little trickle of hope that would surely out weigh my despair.
 
Thank GOD the various blood tests were negative (in other words, the test were fine). But when I next speak to the doctor I'll ask whether more tests can be done - maybe an ultra sound or MRI - just to make sure I'm all wired up correctly.  I hope he doesn't tell me to, 'just relax' I'm fed up of hearing that, I am as relaxed as I can be (ummm... maybe it's time to light a candle and burn some lavender incense, just to make sure…lol).


Me: Knock knock 
You: Who's there?
Me: Husband, wife and Bi9 (soon we hope)